Final thoughts

It is now 11:39pm the night before our son is to be born.
Sara is dozing on the couch finally. She has had a tough few days.
How do I feel now?
I feel tired, happy, scared, hopeful and incredibly blessed.

Our plan is to print out this blog, bind it into a book and give it to the Captain on his 18th or 21st birthday or sometime when we feel that he would appreciate it.

I have daydreamed many times about what my final words would be on this site. About what I would want to say to my son. But now that time has come, I'm lost for words.
Let me just say this.
Son, your not here yet and I don't know what the future will bring us.
I don't know whether or not I will be a good dad.
I don't know whether I will be as supportive of the things that will be important to you as you would like me to be.
I don't know whether I will be an inspiration to you or a disapointment.
I don't know whether I will be a good husband to your mother.
I don't know whether I can keep bread on the table or afford all the things I want for you.
But there are a few things I do know.
I know that I love you with all my heart.
And I will always love you.
I love your mother.
And, I will try to do the right thing. for both of you. Always; I promise.
For I am about to have my life incredibly changed by your presence and I truly am, at the begining of a great adventure.

Jed